Lady-VaVa

Stiff, chilled mornings Started with a saline breakfast Snorting a line of glitter To go out in to the world once more Walking among them In razor lined heels Wearing dark sunglasses To make this place a little less real One more purge is One more cat walk turn Gently lay the frail frame Rest... Tommorrow it begins again Just a small price To pay for "beauty"

You saw the me No one else cared to see You protected me When I was shattered You loved the me I couldn't love You gave me light In my darkest of times Held my hand, when I cried Though time passes; through and through I'm only here because of you Saw behind my mask and loved me still You're my biggest fan and I am yours My best friend when I had none You saved me from that loaded gun I love you so and the memories we share Throughout my life you're always there I love you mom

Please; Reach up and pull me out Don't let me die by my own hand Full chamber roulette Those are my kind of odds Please help me I'm so far gone Lay roses on my chest When I'm cold and limp Cry not for me I cry not for me Bridges burned Lessons learned Aces up my sleeve Where my heart used to lay Before it was ripped out By you that day You nudged the first domino The row's almost gone I just hope you know I loved you all along I hope that you care and for me you'll weep I would have followed you Your meek little sheep Tears cried for you Your pictures seared I hope you remember me for all your years

I fucking hate you I'd die for you Everything about you Absolutley everything Enchants me Haunts me I want you to hold me to love me But you only Cut me Shatter me With closed eyes

The farther you go the closer the razor gets The chamber is cold Who's to say... Will it be warm? Do you care at all? Something in your eyes says you don't But something in your eyes says you always have Stop giving me cyanide loneliness and more of the heroine embraces Hold me together Break me apart Quit plaing games Leave me or love me

You know not What you do to me You're oblivious To the pain You inflict on me I wish you knew But I try my hardest So you never find out

He's out there looking for me too Instead of being frightened, when he sees my scar's, he'll comfort and protect me He'll stand by me blind to my faults and hold me as if I were perfect He'll never notice the wreck in my mirror rather he'll see the little beauty I actually posses wanting to protect the odd treasure that is forever his

Please give me the vile Bigger or smaller I care not I'll simply follow The white rabbit Down the hole Away from home Chesire cat Go and come As you see fit I envy your gift There's a reason why My land isn't called "Wonder" lace the Mad Hatter's tea Nothing matters afterall Cubes of angel dust One lump, or two? Catipillar, pass the hooka Who am I? Men on the chess board Follow your Queen's order's Be loyal to her wishes Not for my sake, ofcourse Doormouse, understand I cannot feed my head Too much, too quick I always wake up anyway I've asked Alice She said "No escape" Wonderland's a band-aid Nothing lasts... F

Everything I want Everything I need Is right in your hands Yet you toss it away "He forgot our anniversary" I wish I had an anniversary "He always wants to hold hands" I wish I had a hand to hold You take for granted What I would die for If you wont appriciate it Give it to me I would treasure it... Forever

If his arms were mine to own I'd wrap them around me and shut the world out If his chest was mine to claim I'd lay on it each night and drift away If his eyes were to be mine I'd be sure that they'd never shed a tear If his hands were mine to hold They'd always have company from my own If... oh yes If... He were mine